padagata

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31.07.24

I like waking up knowing I have a lot of laundry. It means I am alive more than ever. The fact that I have the strength and time to write down my thoughts. It is just a miracle.

3:58 PM

For the first time I navigated the city in a car by myself. I was not anxious. I drove like I knew the busy vicinity. I was surprise of myself. But then, I used Google maps.

4:14 PM

I have found out. On the table again. I have to find joy soon. I wonder what cause it? In a span of two months, it is a significant growth.

Is it causing itself?

Flying? Being home?

Another hex, vex, or curse from another?

Have I sinned to much?

01.08.2024

3:05 AM

The third or fourth nightmare. Should I conclude this as vexation already? A commissioned retaliating spirit, perhaps.

02.08.2024

1:49 PM

I finally have the courage to go to reconcilation, less not drag myself to hear mass. Whatever this is —new dmn or not— stronger. It knows my weakness. I am better, but still trying toget back to a 100% State of Grace.